Ice Doll VS Haystack

i cant be shaken by anything.

you cant bring me down, nor bring me up, by anything.


i need to remember my sole target in life: SELF SUFFICIENT.

i cant be shaken by a temporary stay; either it's a regular boy-girl relationship.. or even a mariage.

those are all temporary.

i might get hurt at some certain point in life.

..need to calm down.

be a good ice doll.

i cant have a heart.

i must remember how long i already walk.

i cant fail me.

im the one i have to take care of.

im the most important matter (to me) that might exist on earth.

i cant be tempted by fake happiness.

..fake 'forever'.

only me can make my 'forever'.

i cant let me blinded by fake happiness.

the sole happiness is exist within me and me only.

that's right, i am indoctrinating myself.

i dont feel the life.

i make what i allowed to feel out of my thought of life.

that's how i live.

it's by far the savest way to live i can think of.





oh, and by the way, you never have to choose between me and your believe.

'cuz i dont really consider to stay that long.

keep it in your soul. and may your believe be your strength.

i wud never come between that kind of bond.

..so plese dont try to invite me to come.

..well, whatever. let's see what i am capable of doing.


as far as i can recall, i didn't complain when battle given to my face.

that's somehow an event to prove me to myself.

..to prove that im strong enough to bear the way of living that have been planned by such worthy of a mind.

im aware the grammar is riddiculous. i might someday come back here and fix things.